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Love: a temporary insanity ...

... don't I know it.

*TTGRT* Update

Yes, I am well aware that it is Wednesday ... LMAO!!!

Yesterday was just one of those days for me ... so I'm updating today instead.

So, lets see ...

I've definitely ate alot better this past week!! The exercise is still a struggle for me, but I'm managing ....

Check back next week and don't forget to post any tips and/or encouragement {I need it ya'll}!!!

Love what you do ...

For the Young who want to

Talent is what they say you have after the novel is published and favorably reviewed. Beforehand what you have is a tedious delusion, a hobby like knitting.

Work is what you have done after the play is produced and the audience claps. Before hand the friends keep asking when you are planning to go out and get a job.

Genius is what they know you had after the third volume of remarkable poems. Earlier they accuse you of withdrawing, ask why you don't have a baby, call you a bum.

The reason people want M.F.A's, take workshops with fancy names when all you can really learn is a few techniques, typing instructions and somebody else's mannerisms.

Is that every artist lacks a license to hang on the wall like your optician, your vet proving you may be a clumsy sadist whose fillings fall into the stew but you're certified a dentist.

The real writer is one who really writes.

Talent is an invention like phlogiston after the fact of fire.

Work is its own cure.

You have to like it better than being loved.

~Marge Piercy~

I read this poem today and related immediately.

You have to absolutely LOVE what you do even if no one else loves you for it ... yet!

Where is it when you need it?!?!?

I seriously need to get one ... for a WHOLE lotta' shit!!!!

*Time to Get Right* Tuesday

So, I'm finally back on track with my workouts and dieting ... waaaay back when I first started this blog I was just getting back into whipping this body back into pre-baby shape. I've loooonnnggg since run out of baby-blame considering my baby is now 2 years old!!! But I must admit that I fell off. I won't bore you with my many excuses and will get directly to the point ... I was being lazy. I had ever single advantage to get this right and I didn't. So excuses aside, I'm blogging to add some accountability to this goal.

Please, please, please feel free to grace me with any tips, comments or just good ole' motivation ... I will need it all!!!! The plan is to post my progress every Tuesday. However, DO NOT count on weight updates until I'm a lil' closer to my goal ... I'm just not ready for that yet!!

Anyhow, wish me luck ... here goes everything.

The Plan {Daily}

Elliptical 20 minutes

{working my way up to an hour}

3 meals/2 snacks

64oz water; no juices/soda

{I don't drink soda anyways so that shouldn't be too hard}

The Goal: Feel better, more energy & look great!!

Is it just me .....

Or does it seem like poeple go through ALOT of trouble to impress people they don't even like?!?!?!?

What's up with that???

Sheree is throwing a damn party every other weekend and for who??? The same poeple she's bashing on every other week. I don't think any of them are innocent ... if you really listen to the seperate interviews they all take jabs at the other at some point. But damn ... if I don't like you I don't want to see you.

But hey, maybe that's just me.

P.S. Thank GOD it's Friday, Bitches!!!!

The Lewis Crew ... more to come!!!

What's holding you Back???

FINALLY I've had the chance to catch up on Tiny & Toya and I must say, it actually made me think. Really I just expected to be entertained by Tiny's {overly} Southern drawl and both of the ladies' story. I love seeing how other people live their lives. Seeing how they deal with life in general. Be it on tv or getting to know new people in my own life. I think it's important to know that there is more to life, more to the world than what you're used to seeing day to day in your own.
After recapping all 4 episodes that I've missed since the shows premier I actually feel motivated to go further with my own goals and aspirations. From each story I've gained something. Like Tiny's situation, I too have wondered if fighting to maintain my individuality will create a gap in my relationship. I have since realized that you absolutely have to in order to maintain a healthy relationship, even if it's not exactly what he may want at the time. But I know first hand how it can be really hard to 'rock the boat' when things seem to be coming along peacefully. When you finally get what you want, you tend to feel kind of guilty about wanting more. But it's human nature to continue to strive for bigger and better. Not only that, you have to be true to who you are or you'll begin to resent the other person, maybe even yourself for all the things you didn't do.
Toya, wow. The family issues I realate to 100%. My mom wasn't/isn't on drugs. But she wasn't there. To be fair, she was working to keep us out of the lifestyle that she grew up with. She wanted better for her kids, and we got it. I give her much credit for that. We never went without the neccesities, but that was it. I kind of feel like she did what she had to do, and that was it. Things that I should have learned as a girl, I didn't. Instead I'm learning as I go. Relationships that should have been cultivated as I grew up, weren't. I'm still learning things now as an adult that, in my opinion I should already know. Things that I worried about as a young adult were things that my friends are still not worrying about. All of which has made me into the self sufficient person that I am today ONLY because I decided a long time ago that the blame game wasn't going to help me to survive. I have grown a great deal, so yeah I know that my mom did the best she knew how to do, and I can't expect more than that. But it does hurt still when I'm with my friends and their families and you see the love. I didn't really feel that growing up in my home. I don't feel like I can call my Mom if all else fails. Or anyone else for that matter. I feel like I have no choice but to make it and I don't want my daughter to feel like that. I will have her back first and foremost no matter what happens and I want her to know that in her heart. All of my babies. Nothing should ever be more important than family.

What it all comes down to is that everyone is human. No matter how much money or fame you have aquired, you are still a PERSON. We all have our pains and struggles as well as our triumphs. I laughed, I cried. I'm definitely going to try catch the show. Or atleast keep up on Bet.com!!!

Damn ... is it August already?!?!?!?

Where does the time go???? It seems like just yesterday I was hand feeding my daughter because she couldn't do it by herself, now she's running around telling me what she will and won't eat!!! This year has truly flung by. Soon it'll be time to start all over with a brand new year. I must say, I'm looking forward to it. Next year I'll be 25, officially a grown ass woman ... not to down play the fact that I've been holding down a full fledge family for 3 years now and have been on my own since 17. At 25 you really have no excuses not to have the life you really want or at least KNOW the life you want and have a plan on how to get there. It's waaaay too late to blame it all on Mommy and/or Daddy and hopefully you are past the days of 'blaming it on the alcohol'. It's definitely time to take a seat and access where you are and where you're going. This week I'm on Vacay ... so I'll have plenty of time to plant some of the seeds I plan to cultivate throughout the next five years and the rest of my life. So much I want to do ... I love new beginnings!!! Be back very soon ...